We’ll share Three Things on Tuesdays, any three things – basic stuff, not soooo basic stuff. And today, I’m sharing Three Things I fear the most about being a mom.
My first few months of being a mom were filled with fear and anxiety, of everything. Is he breathing? Does he like me? Is he eating enough? Why hasn’t he peed in 3 hours? Gosh!!!! Wayyyy too many fears, yes valid but they made me feel like I was drowning in all this pressure to get it right, to be The Perfect Mom – as if there is such a thing!
Now my fears are different, and constantly changing, but I deal with them better. My 3 biggest fears now are:
- I fear the day J would have his first big cut: he’s had a few scratches here and there but he hasn’t yet had an actual bleeding cut. You know those ones that require the ER or stitches *shudders* I may just need a Dr myself that day.
- I fear, in fact I DREAD, J’s first day at school. We don’t have a struggle with drop-offs at Grandma’s but I secretly dread the first day i would have to drop him off at school. If I’m being honest, I’m more afraid of the separation anxiety and perhaps sadness I would be feeling in that moment.
- And undoubtedly my biggest fear is that down the line what if my child(ren) start to think I would have been a better mom if I’d been at home all of the time with them, than be at work. But then I take solace in knowing that it’s not the amount of time we spend together that matters but what we do with that time; so I can’t feel bad for my life choices.
It’s always hard (and a lot of moms are not likely) to admit fear but from my personal experience, acknowledging your fear is a better way of dealing with them, because sometimes the simplest fears are the hardest to face.
So brace up, and share what is / was your biggest fear being a mom?
Love & Light,